“Part of being an athlete is that you become vulnerable to the whim of every trainer, coach, media person, promoter, and sponsor. They want freaks. So you set out to be a freak or go unnoticed. The things you are willing to do for success are humiliating to think about.

[I] hope that at least one person will decide not to use steroids…or a few people in the same situation will become aware, as I did, and stop before their tragedy comes back to haunt them.”